Today's thoughts are bigger than I want to tackle but I've had this quote in my drafts for awhile now, so it's time to share. I have been moody this week (a true treat for my husband) and find myself feeling all kinds of illogical and emotional things. The easy thing to do would be just chalk it up to hormones, but I think God wants me to dig a little deeper and be a little more vulnerable.
I am a
very guilty soul mixed with a to-do list mind which makes a lethal combination when I feel guilty about all the things I haven't "done" for God lately. The balance comes when I seek a place of trust (in God, my salvation, the blood of Christ, the list goes on....Proverbs 3:5-6) and acceptance of grace (Ephesians 2:8-9). There are so many scriptures I could share and so much more of God's word that I need to study out, but I will keep it simple with this honestly raw and humbling prayer of David:
"I waited patiently for the Lord; he inclined to me and heard by cry.
He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure.
He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear, and put their trust in the Lord.
Blessed is the [woman] who makes the Lord his trust, who does not turn to the proud, to those who go astray after a lie!
You have multiplied, O Lord my God, your wondrous deeds and your thoughts toward us; none can compare with you!
I will proclaim and tell of them, yet they are more than can be told.
In sacrifice and offering you have not delighted, but you have given me an open ear.
Burnt offering and sin offering you have not required.
Then I said, 'Behold, I have come in the scroll of the book it is written of me: I delight to do your will, O my God; your law is within my heart.'
I have told the glad news of deliverance in the great congregation; behold I have not restrained my lips, as you know, O Lord.
I have not hidden your deliverance within my heart; behold, I have spoken of your faithfulness and your salvation; I have not concealed your steadfast love and your faithfulness from the great congregation.
As for you, O Lord, you will not restrain your mercy from me; your steadfast love and your faithfulness will ever preserve me!
For evils have encompassed me beyond number; my iniquities have overtaken me, and I cannot see; they are more than the hairs of my head; my heart fails me.
Be pleased, O Lord, to deliver me!
O Lord, make haste to help me!
Let those be put to shame and disappointed altogether who seek to snatch away my life; let those be turned back and brought to dishonor who delight in my hurt!
Let those be appalled because of their shame who say to me, 'Aha, Aha!'
But may all who seek you rejoice and be glad in your; may those who love your salvation say continually, 'Great is the Lord!'
As for me, I am poor and needy, but the Lord takes thought for me.
You are my help and my deliverer; do not delay, O my God!"
Psalm 40 (emphasis added)
P.S. If you have time, I highly recommend heading over to
Beyond Mountains and reading one of Jenna's recent posts on
trust and joy through challenges.
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